things that have been happening that have not been public

I am keeping the details OFF of FACEBOOK.
IF you respect me, you will do the same. Thanks.
Feel free to comment here, etc etc etc.

There are instructions and consequences to ignoring the instructions. 
Feel free to do whatever the fuck that you want. But later, when you do not like the consequences, I will direct you to 

I am FINE. 

Please do not ask HOW I am doing, that makes me FEEL BAD. 

IF you have been to my house or slept in my bed or I have known you forever, feel free to bother me in private, calls and messages. 

Details will happen when details are available. etc. 

I am FINE. 

I have known about this for a while, and been preparing and getting my mind right. 

"What are you going to do??" 

Nothing, "planning" a LOT of time off, down time. 

"BUT" 

Please stop asking, you KNOW that I fucking share EVERYTHING on facebook, why do you think that .. 

"random text messages" 

oh my god 

My severance includes health and dental during the severance period. 

I am FINE. 

IF you are "worrying" about me, STOP RIGHT NOW. 

Worry about the people that trump is murdering. 

Current thoughts are Colorado for a month of ... nothing. 

Hiking, golf, friends and family, ...
This idea might still happen if I choose to MOVE.
But for now, sheltering in PLACE.

2020 07 31 - official last day

2020 07 27 - done and done and done and done - in the end, our POC was a success.  
Cleaning up a bit. Will meet with boss and team one last time to go over a couple details. I need to put some stuff in shared folders. etc. but ... really done with trying to finish anything.

2020 07 15 - daily status meeting - waiting for the meeting to start - pete needs to transition what he did

2020 07 15 - 5 people from my group were laid off, including my boss - the blood bath continues 

2020 07 15 - BOOM - call from HR and bosses boss - You last day will be 2020 07 31 (tiny chance that this could be extended to 2020 08 30) - no extension

2020 07 14 - daily status meeting 

2020 07 14 - met with JC to part three - the last bits and pieces that I NEEDED 

2020 07 13 - daily status meetings begin with new team 

2020 07 12 - more work 

2020 07 11 - wohoo THIS is running - more work 

2020 07 10 - literally spent more than 16 hours installing THIS. all because the idiots left out the first step 

2020 07 09 - met with JC to part two - "for your homework, install THIS" 

2020 07 08 - run run run new stuff 

2020 07 07 - met with JC to start learning new tech 

2020 07 06 - crazy pete asserted that he could learn new tech in a week 

2020 07 05 - Proof of Concept #002 

2020 07 02 - Proof of Concept #001 

2020 07 01 - more stuff 

2020 06 30 - meetings 

2020 06 29 - meetings 

2020 06 28 - sunday - lol worked 8+ hours - love this new project at the end of my job 

2020 06 27 - tired as fuck - worked 

2020 06 26 - drinks and dinner with the denise, read until stupid oclock 

2020 06 26 - sore from massage - idiot - started using some super cool new tech 

2020 06 25 - massage - super amazing massage with new masseuse 

2020 06 24 - in theory, this project could lead to consulting or a position in the future 

2020 06 23 - boss and I started working on a super cool new secret project for work. 

2020 06 22 - monday - first thing - I was informed. I was given the opportunity to look and apply 

2020 06 19 - friday - my boss found out that he was being laid off. And that I would be laid off.

26 fucking years, the same boss, the same company, dozens of different ceos and owners.
This is going to take a long time to completely process.
In the end, I have to decide WHO I am and what and where and when and why and how.
Asking me about those things is a STRESS
People who STRESS me will ... Consequences.

One clear thing is that I will be playing.
I need to work on some certifications if I am going to work again.
Another option is retiring.
Another is .... shrug

I have an infinite number of options.

let your teenager sleep you fucking psychopath

I was triggered the other day by a parent whining about their teen staying up till 5am (doing HOMEWORK) and then wanting to sleep.
The parent, of course, woke the kid up, instead of letting them sleep.

My mother did this. For an infinite number of reasons, my mother was abusive.
Stop it.

1) teens need sleep. this is when their growth hormones peak. this is when you immune system peaks and works best. This is when your brain processes memories, doing what it does.
2) dont give a FUCK about you, or how you didnt need this. this isnt about YOU. this is about you, abusing your child.
3) but (insert asshole reasons for why YOU think that you should wake the kid up, just because you are up.
4) IT IS THE FUCKING PLAGUE. Everyone is trapped in the house. Everyone is different. STOP IT.
5) (Insert asshole reasons WHY they should obey your insane rules because "scoiety". And later, when they are acting out, and you have no clue why, yup, it is YOUR FAULT.
6) Why not just beat them? No really, beat them. Get a switch or a belt. And BEAT them whenever they dont fit your tiny minded view of the universe.

Yup, this happened to me constantly, at a time when I needed sleep the most, my insane mother refused to let me fucking sleep.
Didnt matter that I had been up working until 1am then doing what teens do. GET UP YOUR LAZY ... YOU'RE NOT SICK. JSUT LAZY.

Sure, YOU are a nice parent. You would never call them LAZY. Just wake them up because REASONS.
Sure, go ahead, explain this to your shrink, the CRITICAL NEED to maintain control over every aspect of life. How THIS will get your kid into the best school ... blah blah blah blah.

PRIORITIES
OBEY
OBEY

fuck it

mothballing, check-pointing, thinking out-loud and the luchins trap

this is how to avoid the luchins trap

was literally just talking about THIS ... NOT the specific NA problem, but HOW do groups better share info when they no longer work in an office?
My "thought" was LUNCH, where we sit in hangout while eating lunch together and babble  about the most  recent strange thing that we had to research to solve. 
EVEN if we dont need it today, it gets slotted into strange memory, which we will "sort of remember" later.

FOR EXAMPLE ... something that just BLEW ME AWAY  ... and we should all start doing it regularly.

MothBalling / CheckpointingI had to mothball a project that I have been working on for 9 month/ 50 years.  I had copious hand written notes (hand writing is FASTER than typing and can be done anywhere).
I typed them all into OneNote, Organizing them as I went, which created new thoughts on how to solve the problem better, and more notes.
When I return to the project, it is MUCH better off than yesterday.
In the end, the process was a GIANT luchins thought experiment, forcing me to question every decision that I made from the start.

HOW often have we worked on a project, PLOWING AHEAD TO GET IT DONE, only to whoops, this isnt going to work.
Checkpointing every week or month forces you to collect your thoughts and WRITE THEM DOWN.  The act of doing this forms new pathways, and is insane useful.

HOW many times, has the act of asking the question "hey brian/james, how do I do this" help formulate the question: IF I can not explain the question to you, there is NO WAY that I actually understand the question.  
We see this ALL of the time when trying to formulate a search question on google.

thred jacks are always threadjacks

I have boycotted him ever since his daughter's letter, despite having at the time just bought one of his movies. I found the letter credible. I never watched the film I bought. I will never watch another film of his again. We have a culture that has abused and exploited women and girls and silenced them and celebrated the abusers. We will continue to have such a culture as long as people don't take a stand.
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Peter Cibulskis did you read the moses article posted above?
aka, the only older child in the room?
whose testimony ended every criminal investigation?…See More
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Clare Pearson Peter Cibulskis There is a lot of mess around this, but I am not convinced. Woody Allen has always raised potential abuser vibes in me. Survivors mess up their recollections, but it doesn't mean abuse didn't happen. Family members can become convinced …See More
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Peter Cibulskis that's great. and lies
there is no mess. there is mia farrow.
the victim had implanted memories. …See More
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Clare Pearson Peter Cibulskis We don't know what happened to her. But I will respect her voice and give her the benefit of the doubt over him. And in my experience, crazy women don't get that way all on their own. But her mother is not the issue.
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Peter Cibulskis The first article and the second article are about a specific case. you changed the topic to talk about generalities, that's nice. but belongs else where. You should have that conversation there.
Go ahead and list a point in the first article ... and why you agree or disagree. Unless your goal is whataboutism
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Clare Pearson Peter Cibulskis Nope. This is a general principle for me. We CANNOT ever adjudicate a rape case based on hearsay, & we do not have the right to judge intimate violations in peoples' lives. We have to have enough humility to realize and admit that. We d…See More
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Peter Cibulskis you have confused my understand of the general, with posting about the specific. I get it.
thank you for not discusing either article.
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Clare Pearson And anything else feels to me dangerously close to mansplaining a victim's experience. Won't go there.
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Clare Pearson Peter Cibulskis No, Peter, I am not confused. You are missing my point.

recommendations

PETE LOVES TO RECOMMEND FRIDAY

It is probably one of my greatest pleasures, recommending a book to a friend, that I think that THEY will love. (NOT my favorites) For the SCIENCE NERDS on the SCIENCE of RECOMMENDING, read Stumbling on Happiness, dan gilbert.
Be warned, it will change your mind.

Nothing warms me more, than when someone says, WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME SOONER?????

Pick your favorite recommendation from me and post it here.
Could be a book or show or movie or song.

you can PM me if you are too embarrassed

You can also remind me of something that YOU introduced me to, that I would NEVER had experienced without you.

I only have a FEW of my own that come to mind.
Terry Green - The Way of Kings - Sanderson
Terry FORCED ME TO READ A BOOK, that I had bought when it came out, and left on the pile to read ... for maybe 5 years. And one day Terry said. STFU, PUT EVERYTHING DOWN, READ THIS NOW.
Terry is the only person I currently trust with this level of recommendation.

Dawn Cassello - my oldest friend. <3 I have know her, since my first class at WY. in 1978. As a transfer student who knew no one, in a class filled with upperclassmen, I was only 1-3 years younger than everyone.
I can only assume that I have Dawn to blame for Xanth, the dragonbone chair. and Amber !!
Her latest recommendation was HBO - Euphoria.
I havent finished it. I ... not sure that I want to. But ... it is close to perfect. so ending it would be sad.
Dawn - I give you, To Reign in Hell. Read the introduction by Zelazny!!!!!
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B003E74AL6/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_hsch_vapi_tkin_p2_i1
Check your email

Tim (ANNNNNNNNN)
My little sister Ann recommended a book, on or about 1992.
It sat on the pile for YEARS, she actually TOOK IT BACK about 1999 to reread, and then GAVE IT BACK TO ME YELLING - READ THIS NOW, YOU WILL LOVE IT.
The book has THE WORST WORST WORST cover of all time. A chick in mail on a horse, being attacked by wolves.
It looked like crappy gothic romance, YAWN.
So, I have only reread it .... 3-4 times now, and the prequels. (some good some bad) the later ones are .... mem ... mixed
But The DEED
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00APA1E96/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1
The pacing of this book is perfect. Slow slow boom.
Slow slow boom.
Slow when you are learning new things, BOOM when it gets to where it is going.


You can also remind me of something that YOU introduced me to, that I would NEVER had experienced without you.



There is a MAGIC to recommending (ok science). It is NOT about you. It is NOT about your favorite. It is about knowing someone well enough, to think that they would LIKE something.
IT is NOT about your favorite.

9001 people told me that Raiders was the best movie in the universe and I should see it now!!! YOU WILL LOVE IT. BUT, the people recommending it were DIVERSE, and none of them had similar taste, and when I finally saw it, I hated it. It was at best, a 5.

And I have been doing this all my life.
It started with trying to FORCE people to read things that I LIKED.
LOL
that never works. Ask poor Ashley Eberhart (my godaughter) I buried her in books. LOL

green chef

I do keto, cause TRYING FUCKING STICK TO KETO ... and I am crazy healthier with no carbs

BUT, you can switch ....
in theory, each week you can pick different recipes ... for a few weeks out.

I CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY recommend it. I ... have finished them ALL !! lol

1) I get 3, 2-person meals each week. which means 6 meals for me. typically lunch and dinner. or like yesterday and tonight, two dinners.

2) trina and scott and denise are HOOKED
Denise's daughters were like MOM YOU CAN COOK?!!!

3) 30 minutes start to finish. so for me, NO PLANNING .... lol
SOME recipes call for baking in the oven, fuck that shit, I cut them into piecces and stir fry.

4) CRAZY nice way to try new things ....
cumin seed, onions and cabbage? ZERO chance that I would ever have eaten that. I now buy cabbage just to make my own ... hahaha

5) good portions ... smaller than I want, but I am fatter than I want. so perfect. hahaha

I think ... I have had ONE thing that was 3/5. everything else was a solif 4 or 5. FFS, I scrape the bowl. LOLOL

and ... other than a little slicing and needing two pans ... really easy to make. simple recipes.

dont get me wrong you can cook. I can cook.
BUT ... no measuring ... jsut open packets, dump stir

I have bought 2-3 different spices because of them ... mmmmmmmmm

Can you TELL that I like them??

2020 03 30 - AFTER the desktop exploded - and what I KNOW so far.

so ... to let you know where I am on THE DESKTOP OF DEATH

1) I tried replacing my C drive with a NEW C DRIVE (aka, old one laying around)
THis was still a CLUSTERFUCK FROM HELL

2) UNPLUGGED and removed 100% of ALL OTHER DRIVES ...all 4 of them
OH LOOK ... I was able to EASILY install windows on the NEW DRIVE,

Desktop is totally UP AND RUNNING, FASTER than ever, HOW EXCITING.

TAKE AWAY ....
1) my original C drive was PROBABLY NOT THE PROBLEM (might have been two bad drives, but really??)
2) NEXT STEP - PUT the original C drive BACK INTO THE MACHINE and confirm one way or the other.

Either way.
1) I have a NEW NEW C drive that arrived yesterday - so if the ORG C is dead, I can COPY to NEW and TADA
2) OMFG a clean install is SO FUCKING FAST .... waht is wrong with us ?? HAHAHA
3) FUCKING MAKE SURE that you have offline backups (check), restore points (have them but bad drives= lol), recovery images and what nots

also, learning some STRANGE new things about windows to share later .... LOLOLOL

MY GOD I LOVE Nvme drives.

Thanks again

FIND that awesome flowchart and use it for debugging in the future ... LOLOLOL