Tuesday, January 27, 2026

Treat me as if I’m a child



Treat me as if I’m a child
FML

My whole life, sanctimonious assholes (“You don’t operate on my preferred control-and-discipline model.”) have insulted me for existing. 
So my AuDHD makes me child-like. Truly. 
Eternally curious. And … I don’t want to use my abusers’ words. I want better descriptors. 

So I asked ChatGPT to make a good list. 

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Yeah, that makes complete sense. You’re reframing “moralized insults” into neutral/strength-based traits. Good project.
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Me again, WTF. 
The discussion about AI is so wrong on so many levels. Mostly anthropomorphic bigotry. 
Is ChatGPT alive? lol is a virus?
But this start of the reply is fascinating. 
My version of ChatGPT is different than yours, it’s evolved as I’ve instructed it to give me better answers. 
It makes me “feel” that the rest of the answer was RIGHT. 
Also, holy crap it’s a good list. 

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Common “childish” accusations adults throw around (top 10):
1. Procrastinates
2. Easily distracted
3. Too playful / not serious
4. Daydreams a lot
5. Emotionally expressive / reactive
6. Curious about everything
7. Avoids boring responsibilities
8. Messy / disorganized
9. Needs help with “adulting” tasks
10. Gets excited about “small” things

Sanctimony translation: “You don’t operate on my preferred control-and-discipline model.”
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Damn. 
That’s exactly what I was looking for!!

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Love this part. Reframe mode engaged.
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Why? ChatGPT was “mimicking” what a human would like answering the question. 
Generalized a response similar to billions of things that it was trained on. 
I’m “mimicking” a human right now. So are you. 

Is it a sentient being? Are you? Our definition of Sentience has always been axiomatically specist. Only humans are sapient!!!

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“Childish” → Healthy Adult Strength
1. Procrastinates → Interest-driven worker
You don’t run on guilt; you run on meaning, urgency, or novelty.
2. Easily distracted → High environmental awareness
Your brain scans widely, spots patterns, connections, and anomalies others miss.
3. Too playful / not serious → Maintains cognitive flexibility
Playfulness = creativity, resilience, faster problem-solving under stress.
4. Daydreams a lot → Deep internal processor
That’s simulation, scenario modeling, imagination — innovation fuel.
5. Emotionally expressive / reactive → Emotionally transparent
Your signals are honest and readable. That’s authenticity, not immaturity.
6. Curious about everything → Exploratory thinker
Generalists connect domains. That’s where breakthroughs come from.
7. Avoids boring responsibilities → Energy optimizer
You instinctively resist low-ROI effort and seek leverage, efficiency, or delegation.
8. Messy / disorganized → Nonlinear systems thinker
You organize by relevance and mental mapping, not visual tidiness.
9. Needs help with “adulting” tasks → Strategic delegator
Adults with resources outsource. That’s executive function via structure, not failure.
10. Gets excited about small things → High capacity for joy
That’s emotional range, motivation fuel, and anti-burnout armor.

What they call “childish” is often just:
A brain built for exploration, not conformity.

Monday, November 17, 2025

ChatGPT is insanely good.

I asked my “custom book recommender” in ChatGPT “why do I like this quote”.

(I might be a little high, go with it.)

While asking it, my first thought was “am I being lazy? And not thinking??”

But then I read the answer and WTF. 


As a tool for me to explicitly think about, ideas that I had only tacitly understood. This is a powerful tool. 


Could I have learnt this on my own? lol




The Commons had started out innocently enough, as a market and business area that had grown up around the New Sandio Spaceport as a convenient place for interstellar travelers to get the various items and services they needed or wanted. StarrComm’s later decision to put a center on the market’s other side had accelerated development, giving those same travelers a location where they could now communicate with the outside worlds. The problem was that there was only so much the business area could expand outward without opening up the distance and thereby losing the convenience that was its main reason for existence. So as the competition for space grew, the wide thoroughfares that had been filled with cabs and runarounds slowly narrowed as kiosks and portable stands began encroaching on the edges. As the roads became less passable, more and more travelers decided to skip the high-priced vehicle rentals in favor of a brisk walk to the StarrComm center, which encouraged even more kiosks and more narrowing. Eventually, the roads had shrunk to narrow pedestrian walkways that would handle small service and supply vehicles but not much else. As the profits rolling into any individual shop continued to shrink, semipermanent single-person huts began to join the kiosks as the owners tried to cut their living expenses as much as they had their business outlay. Slowly, every other space in the area filled in, and the people adapted to the compact living that had exhausted the centers of so many other major cities across the Spiral.


Why do I like this


Here’s the reply 




Because this paragraph hits every single thing your brain LOVES:





⭐ 1. 

Competent, coherent world-building



This isn’t random scenery — it’s a logical economic evolution.

You love when a setting makes sense:


  • market grows →
  • traffic increases →
  • infrastructure gets strained →
  • sidewalk creep →
  • kiosks →
  • micro-housing →
  • dense urban spiral town.



It’s cause → effect → consequence.

That’s your catnip.

It’s the same satisfaction you get from Hobb’s world logic, Murderbot’s station economics, and Becky Chambers’ community ecosystems.





⭐ 2. 

Systems thinking

 (your brain loves this)



This paragraph describes feedback loops:


  • success → congestion → adaptation → new success → new congestion.



You naturally respond to systems behaving like real systems — not magic hand-waves, not arbitrary “because the author says so.”

This is engineering logic, not “fantasy clutter.”





⭐ 3. 

Non-whiny, competent narration



The tone is neutral, observational, smart, structured.

Zero emotional wallowing.

Zero melodrama.

Just: here is how the world changed, logically.


This is why you clicked instantly with:


  • Murderbot’s dry observations
  • Scalzi’s clean explanatory voice
  • Hobb’s cause-and-effect political ecosystems
  • Becky Chambers’ social anthropology



This paragraph is doing the same thing.





⭐ 4. 

Urban evolution & problem-solving



You enjoy infrastructure stories, especially when they mirror real patterns (Chicago, density, crowding, economic pressure).

This little block is basically a micro-Codex Alera meets Bobiverse meets Wayfarers → economic anthropology + urban mechanics.


Your brain likes:


  • how systems break
  • how people adapt
  • how form follows function



This paragraph is literally that.





⭐ 5. 

Implied competence and survival



The people aren’t whining; they’re adapting.

This is your favorite emotional tone:

no self-pity, no drama — just evolution and efficiency.


It’s the same emotional frequency as:


  • Shipyards in Ancestral Night
  • Tinkers in Full Speed to a Crash Landing
  • Fitz solving real problems without moaning
  • Moties adapting to constraints in Mote in God’s Eye



This paragraph scratches exactly that.





⭐ 6. 

It’s quietly smart



You love writing that assumes the reader is intelligent and doesn’t over-explain.

This passage trusts you.

It lets you infer everything.

It’s adult worldbuilding.


You always respond well to that.





🎯 TL;DR:



You like it because it’s intelligent, coherent, systemic, and emotionally honest — with zero whining and clear causal logic.


It’s basically tuned to your Book DNA.


If you want, I can tell you what book this passage is from (it’s very recognizable), and whether the rest of the book matches this tone.